September 09, 2006

En kelvikku enna pathil?

Nan 4th padikache enga amma solluva - nee periya ponna aayitta, u shld not fight with your bro - nee vittukudukanumnu.
Again when I was in 8th she told me the same thing!
When I was at the end of 12th std, people around me constantly reminded me that college is a new phase and I am now an adult and will have to be responsible for all the decisions in my life.
Now at this stage (grad school), I know I am a grown adult but I sometimes wonder if I actually behave like one? I fight with my best friend often, I still fight over who should have the last piece of cake, I feel bad if amma and appa call up my bro more often than me. I feel terrible if A ignores me and watches football on TV. I love to play in the rain. I love to pull pranks on people. I love to tease others. I giggle a lot with my girlfriends. I sulk when I am not given attention. So as an adult am I allowed to do all these things? Am I still allowed to waste time on Friday nights till 4 in the morning doing nothing but hanging out with friends? Am I still allowed to have crushes that I know are going nowhere?Do all these things make me less of an adult?
This is an eternal confusion that persists in me. What are things adults do and when do you leave all your childish habits behind?
Suddenly I do get anwers to my own question - the day when I control my emotions and give all the help I can to someone I dislike totally, the day when I let small things go and be nice to A, the day when I level headedly consider someone's critical remark of me and agree that they are totally right. So is this the beginning to adulthood or will at every stage of life I still feel that I am not acting upto that part as yet?
Yeah I am in a very philosophical mood today!!!

7 comments:

dakaltiz said...
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dakaltiz said...

Very philosophical indeed!! :)
A little bit of child in u is always good and interesting kiruks..
A bit of possesives..bit of anger...fightin for silly things...and the maturity comes when you totally forget this the next moment and b happy with ur dear ones...("bit" emphasised ;))

I feel that we grow up with experinces in life and not age..

:)

dakaltiz said...

Thookathula ezhthuneengala...ille avlo involved a ezhuthuneengala?;)..n e ways edited my comment... ;) & thanks for the comments on my post n the wew feel..of my blog.

logic said...

Good post..dropping here after a very long time

kuttichuvaru said...

life loses spice without all those little kiddish things!! plz dont try to grow out of them :-) keep doin them!!

PS: yeah, I can be philosophical too!!

Kirukal said...

Thanks for everybody for dropping by!!

Siva said...

I guess the answer is simple ..when you have someone to take of under your guidance and when you say "dont be childish give it up etc etc.." probably to your children then you have become an adult and stopped being childish...
Hope it answers...:)-
By the way i was Googling for a tV show named EN Kelvikku enna pathil..and your blog appeared inthe results...
regards
Siva