I am into mommy blogs these days. There are tons and tons of them talking about pee, poop, feeds, midnight wakings, terrible two's, terrible three's, terrible fours etc etc....you get the idea!
And I am desperate to join them. What if lil N feels left out when he grows up? All his buddies will have mommy bloggers while his mommy does not blog! Oh my! I think.
And then I keep wondering how long the "www" will last? Maybe I should start keeping a journal on my laptop? But eh who will comment? Isn't blogging all about getting feedback? Camon! Accept it!
I am an Asst Prof now. So I should not be blogging. Why not? I am sure there are 1000's of them doing just that.
Stop the voices in my head! My hands cannot furiously type what they are thinking!
Student life was so much fun. And now here I am sitting all alone in my big office. Watching the FOB desi students walk by asking for assistantships. No, ma I don't have any I say. If I had one, I may not give it to you because I know exactly how I "worked" when I was given one. Sitting in the lab till midnight every day, appearing to be working while I ended up watching movies on Tamil grounds. You are not going to be doing that in my lab I think. But my heart does go out to them but my mind stops be from being impractical. (I am a good person, don't judge me by this!)
I want to go home and take a nap. Oh no, I forget I can't do that! Because there is a lil devil who will jump on me as soon as I go home and hug me and will not let me go. A tremendous pleasure I tell you on 99% of the days. but on days like today all I want to do is go home and sleep. Maybe I can nap in my office and no one will know? What if the desi student walks in?
I think I better get back to preparing my lecture. That's the only way to put these voices to rest. So long!
September 08, 2010
April 30, 2009
Where to begin?
After a very long time, I happened to visit my own blog. I am at work now but too lazy to do anything but vetti stuff.
I stopped blogging a while ago, maybe because there were so many changes happening that did not give me enough time. I would be lying if I said that I do not find time to write but in reality I do not have time to reflect.
In the last 2 years, I have graduated with a PhD and moved across the US twice. Now in addition we are expecting a new member in the family. All good things! Maybe that's the reason for me not blogging. Its the disappointments in life that have inspired most of my blogs and ofcourse as a single graduate student you have loads of time in your hands.
Also the fact the my other fellow bloggers have stopped blogging may have put me off a little.
And importantly that the one person who influenced, inspired and disappointed me is not a close part of my life anymmore.
Excuses, excuses you think?!
I want to start blogging again. And to my fellow bloggers who have followed me these years, I urge you to start bloggint oo. we should all be one happy family again.
Amen!
I stopped blogging a while ago, maybe because there were so many changes happening that did not give me enough time. I would be lying if I said that I do not find time to write but in reality I do not have time to reflect.
In the last 2 years, I have graduated with a PhD and moved across the US twice. Now in addition we are expecting a new member in the family. All good things! Maybe that's the reason for me not blogging. Its the disappointments in life that have inspired most of my blogs and ofcourse as a single graduate student you have loads of time in your hands.
Also the fact the my other fellow bloggers have stopped blogging may have put me off a little.
And importantly that the one person who influenced, inspired and disappointed me is not a close part of my life anymmore.
Excuses, excuses you think?!
I want to start blogging again. And to my fellow bloggers who have followed me these years, I urge you to start bloggint oo. we should all be one happy family again.
Amen!
January 16, 2008
Whats for Dinner, Honey????
What has 2 hands, 2 feet, a big appetite and does not want to cook or clean? Answer: A married man. I can see hear you swear and say "Hey! I share the daily house work !". Well, consider yourself as one of the few married to a darn lucky gal! I should confess that I am one of the few who is lucky on most days when my guy offers to help around. Why am I letting steam stressing specifically on the word MARRIED man? Because this man before he got married was perfectly capable of making the perfect chicken tikkas, keep his house tidy, doing his own laundry etc etc and once he ties the knot, POOF! pops the question "What's for dinner, Honey?" This is not a myth! This happens with 70% of the people I know. Its not just the guys who are ingrained this way but the elders of the society are of no help either . Long distance phone conversations always start by asking the gal what she cooked today, and to the guy about what he thinks of India's situation wrt cricket?. Why not the guy? And sometimes the gal even thinks it is her "duty" to serve the family. Can you believe this, in this age of Oprah and Hillary? One of my friends says, "My wife likes to be in-charge of the kitchen, so she never lets me enter." I think thats a BS excuse, my friend!!!
I agree ofcourse that this generation of men are better than the generation of our fore-fathers who never entered the kitchen come what may. But why does society expect the woman to be the house keeper? Why not the man pitch in when the woman is working her ass of during the day at her own job?
To those out there, who are not anything like the species I ranted about.....Kudos to you! You are savvy!!! And keep that up!
I am not a hard core feminist or anything but just want to put this thought out there...if you are a guy and reading this blog, never say " Whats for dinner, honey" but say "What shall WE make for dinner, honey?". Believe me, thats not only the best way to your gal's heart but also lays the foundation for a very strong family.
Amen!
September 23, 2007
Never fails to cheer me up....
I had this poster (actually a print out) in my room for years now...I never glanced at it on ordinary days but whenever I felt lonely or dull, the words always managed to lift my spirits. I truly believed in these words. Since I moved, I do not have this poster with me....I could never forget the words......I am embedding it here, so I can come by anytime.
.........................................................................................................................................................................
There are moments in life when you miss someone so much that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real!
When the door of happiness closes, another opens; but often times we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened for us.
Don't go for looks; they can deceive.
Don't go for wealth; even that fades away.
Go for someone who makes you smile, because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright.
Dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go; be what you want to be because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do.
Life is measured not by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away!
May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong,
enough sorrow to keep you human
and enough hope to make you happy.
The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.
When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling.
Live your life so at the end, you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying.
.........................................................................................................................................................................
At this very moment I miss you, my dear friend, so much that I wish I could hold you for real.
.........................................................................................................................................................................
There are moments in life when you miss someone so much that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real!
When the door of happiness closes, another opens; but often times we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened for us.
Don't go for looks; they can deceive.
Don't go for wealth; even that fades away.
Go for someone who makes you smile, because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright.
Dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go; be what you want to be because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do.
Life is measured not by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away!
May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong,
enough sorrow to keep you human
and enough hope to make you happy.
The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.
When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling.
Live your life so at the end, you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying.
.........................................................................................................................................................................
At this very moment I miss you, my dear friend, so much that I wish I could hold you for real.
March 24, 2007
Things I dream to do but never will
* Bunk work without warning, rent a car and drive away to an unplanned destination with a friend
* Invest all of my tiny savings into making a movie
* Star in that movie
* Say 'I love you' to somebody random for the heck of it
* Sing at a concert (my voice is horrible - FYI)
* Dance at a concert (again bad bad dancer)
* Buy a 6 ft teddy bear
* Show the finger at bad drivers
* Slap somebody (like they show heroines do in movies...ithu possibla?)
* Whistle at a super hot guy !!
* Wink at a girl (this is just for funzies!!!)
* Buy a house on the beach (i fear the tsunami, so not a possibility of this wish happening)
* Buy a purse everytime I buy a dress (I lauv expensive purses!!!)
* Finally, drive my car with "Thee pidika thee pidika" in full blast
* Invest all of my tiny savings into making a movie
* Star in that movie
* Say 'I love you' to somebody random for the heck of it
* Sing at a concert (my voice is horrible - FYI)
* Dance at a concert (again bad bad dancer)
* Buy a 6 ft teddy bear
* Show the finger at bad drivers
* Slap somebody (like they show heroines do in movies...ithu possibla?)
* Whistle at a super hot guy !!
* Wink at a girl (this is just for funzies!!!)
* Buy a house on the beach (i fear the tsunami, so not a possibility of this wish happening)
* Buy a purse everytime I buy a dress (I lauv expensive purses!!!)
* Finally, drive my car with "Thee pidika thee pidika" in full blast
January 17, 2007
Wating for a voicemail.....
I am in a long distance relationship for a looooong time now and believe me it is tough! The pros of long distance relationship, as given by various websites and ‘start being happy’ kinda books are BS! The choice of staying away for me is due to the first priority given to career…..but is it really worth it I ask myself many many times.
This is how my typically day usually is (thanks to the great free minutes that cell phone providers give me…)
8.30 am : Me calling…..tring tring tring….no answer…leave voice mail….msg sounds something like this “Hi honey! Good Morning! Naan ippo avasarama kilambaren….labula signal edukathu…so will call u sometime during the day……love u!”
10.00 am: Check voice mail…… “Sorry sweetie! Missed your call…was in the shower……will catch u during the day. Have a nice day!”
Try calling…tring tring…no answer …leave voice mail
Noon: Another voice mail from him….Try calling again …..tring tring…
Here you can add another couple of voice mails from both sides…….
7.00 pm: Me calling again.... tring tring… yeh! finally I catch him.......to summarize the 5 min conversation……he is cooking/ he is in the gym/ he is still at work...so got to talk later……this happens with me when I am engaged with other things too…
11.40 pm: Mission impossibe tune starts playing…this is my phone ringing now….finally we talk for say 10 mins…catch up on the main events of the day….both of us too tried to stay awake….miss sharing the small events like the ice-cream I ate, the shoe he bought, how mean my boss was to me, how he saw this full fgiure girl (yes his eyes still wanders), the joke I loved on Scrubs etc etc……
And another day ends!
Why am I pulambufying so much? Coz my dear readers, do not get to into a long distance and if you do….keep the time spent that way very short. Ennoda unwarranted advice ithu!
And despite listening to his annoying gruff voicemail atleast 10 times everyday, I forgive him (and he forgives me) as soon as I hear his voice!
December 03, 2006
Writing with downcast eyes........
Time: Sunday afternoon
Mood: Pensive
Thoughts: Why I am the way I am?
Goal: To portray myself as a very cheerful persona......
Rationale: People tend to like happy people......happiness is what everyone craves for and they like to be surrounded by happy people too
Plan of action: Smile all the time; do not show your moods as I have lately been doing.
Reason for this post: Usually I am a happy person. But sometimes I have mood swings, which are triggered by stress at work or unkind words or actions from a loved one (who is far far way). This transforms into irritation, anger, hurt and negative emotions that affects my relationship with immediate people around me - usually my friends. I then get upet easily with things they do for no fault of theirs. And having hissed at them I feel ashamed the next day about my behavior. But being the nice friends they are they forgive me. But there still lingers a feeling of unease in my heart.......so maybe if I keep smiling all the time I will overcome these "mood swings"?
Mood: Pensive
Thoughts: Why I am the way I am?
Goal: To portray myself as a very cheerful persona......
Rationale: People tend to like happy people......happiness is what everyone craves for and they like to be surrounded by happy people too
Plan of action: Smile all the time; do not show your moods as I have lately been doing.
Reason for this post: Usually I am a happy person. But sometimes I have mood swings, which are triggered by stress at work or unkind words or actions from a loved one (who is far far way). This transforms into irritation, anger, hurt and negative emotions that affects my relationship with immediate people around me - usually my friends. I then get upet easily with things they do for no fault of theirs. And having hissed at them I feel ashamed the next day about my behavior. But being the nice friends they are they forgive me. But there still lingers a feeling of unease in my heart.......so maybe if I keep smiling all the time I will overcome these "mood swings"?
October 16, 2006
Love...
Love is not what happened when our eyes met first,
Love is not what I felt with your first touch.
I knew it was love when...
.....my heart cried seeing you unhappy,
.....my heart danced seeing you smile,
.......my heart sang at the mention of your name.
I knew it was love when,
......I felt lonely if I did not see you for a day,
.......I got the courage to stand up against the world to be with you.
I know it is love when I leave you realizing that you love me not anymore.
Disclaimer: Not an effect of Jillunu Oru Kaadhal!!!
Love is not what I felt with your first touch.
I knew it was love when...
.....my heart cried seeing you unhappy,
.....my heart danced seeing you smile,
.......my heart sang at the mention of your name.
I knew it was love when,
......I felt lonely if I did not see you for a day,
.......I got the courage to stand up against the world to be with you.
I know it is love when I leave you realizing that you love me not anymore.
Disclaimer: Not an effect of Jillunu Oru Kaadhal!!!
October 09, 2006
Just a passing thought.....
Those four letters always creates some strong emotion in me……………….a smile, a flutter, a sadness, a longing, an anguish……………………sometimes a mixture of all these things. Any similar sounding words brings you to my mind……..that smile, that deep look in your eyes, your face an inscrutable mask always……are you thinking about the same thoughts as me I wonder?
Some things are better left unsaid I believe…………..
September 23, 2006
Kadhal virus.....
It can be seen in your eyes, it can be seen in the tiniest of actions....
"Kaatikodukirathe kanne kaatikodikiruthe
Kadhal vazhigiruthe kannil kadhal vazhigiruthe!"
How do you hide something like love?
Love creeps into you....slowly...you never realise it and then it hits you in the face full blown! Then it is too late to stop it!
When it does wither away, it makes a deep unhealable gnash in your heart.
Literally you can feel your heart bleed!
These cherichable footprints of love....the lingering gazes, the slight touches, the deep sighs, painful fights, tearful making ups.........what more do you want from life?
"Kaatikodukirathe kanne kaatikodikiruthe
Kadhal vazhigiruthe kannil kadhal vazhigiruthe!"
How do you hide something like love?
Love creeps into you....slowly...you never realise it and then it hits you in the face full blown! Then it is too late to stop it!
When it does wither away, it makes a deep unhealable gnash in your heart.
Literally you can feel your heart bleed!
These cherichable footprints of love....the lingering gazes, the slight touches, the deep sighs, painful fights, tearful making ups.........what more do you want from life?
September 17, 2006
Some facts in my life that I have to remind myself....
- This phase will soon pass....so do not worry.
- This phase will soon pass...so hold onto every minute of it.
- You are what you are, so try not change yourself for any one.
- Change is good especially if it is in the interest of somebody else
September 09, 2006
En kelvikku enna pathil?
Nan 4th padikache enga amma solluva - nee periya ponna aayitta, u shld not fight with your bro - nee vittukudukanumnu.
Again when I was in 8th she told me the same thing!
When I was at the end of 12th std, people around me constantly reminded me that college is a new phase and I am now an adult and will have to be responsible for all the decisions in my life.
Now at this stage (grad school), I know I am a grown adult but I sometimes wonder if I actually behave like one? I fight with my best friend often, I still fight over who should have the last piece of cake, I feel bad if amma and appa call up my bro more often than me. I feel terrible if A ignores me and watches football on TV. I love to play in the rain. I love to pull pranks on people. I love to tease others. I giggle a lot with my girlfriends. I sulk when I am not given attention. So as an adult am I allowed to do all these things? Am I still allowed to waste time on Friday nights till 4 in the morning doing nothing but hanging out with friends? Am I still allowed to have crushes that I know are going nowhere?Do all these things make me less of an adult?
This is an eternal confusion that persists in me. What are things adults do and when do you leave all your childish habits behind?
Suddenly I do get anwers to my own question - the day when I control my emotions and give all the help I can to someone I dislike totally, the day when I let small things go and be nice to A, the day when I level headedly consider someone's critical remark of me and agree that they are totally right. So is this the beginning to adulthood or will at every stage of life I still feel that I am not acting upto that part as yet?
Yeah I am in a very philosophical mood today!!!
Again when I was in 8th she told me the same thing!
When I was at the end of 12th std, people around me constantly reminded me that college is a new phase and I am now an adult and will have to be responsible for all the decisions in my life.
Now at this stage (grad school), I know I am a grown adult but I sometimes wonder if I actually behave like one? I fight with my best friend often, I still fight over who should have the last piece of cake, I feel bad if amma and appa call up my bro more often than me. I feel terrible if A ignores me and watches football on TV. I love to play in the rain. I love to pull pranks on people. I love to tease others. I giggle a lot with my girlfriends. I sulk when I am not given attention. So as an adult am I allowed to do all these things? Am I still allowed to waste time on Friday nights till 4 in the morning doing nothing but hanging out with friends? Am I still allowed to have crushes that I know are going nowhere?Do all these things make me less of an adult?
This is an eternal confusion that persists in me. What are things adults do and when do you leave all your childish habits behind?
Suddenly I do get anwers to my own question - the day when I control my emotions and give all the help I can to someone I dislike totally, the day when I let small things go and be nice to A, the day when I level headedly consider someone's critical remark of me and agree that they are totally right. So is this the beginning to adulthood or will at every stage of life I still feel that I am not acting upto that part as yet?
Yeah I am in a very philosophical mood today!!!
August 28, 2006
Quick Update
Quick update abt things happening since my last post:
* Worked on my thesis proposal...phew! that's out of the way now...(for people who are wondering what that is...its another step towards my degree!)
* Month long trip to Chennai - itha pathi sollave thevai illai...full maja thaan! namma ooru maarave illai...ofcourse ippo enna difference na there is more traffic, more people and more cell phones....keerai-kaari kooda has a mobile!!!!
* Back to work....or am I really? Still very disoriented...hate coming back here! Seperated from loved ones..its hard to get back!
* Our gang of 14 has now dwindled to a gang of 7...with people graduating, getting jobs etc. We still have other new comers but I am always wary of new junta so find it hard to embrace them immediately.
* Miss 2005 time with my very close friends terribly! It was a very simple life with As, me, K, An, Aa, N and P (preserving anonymity here!). All these except P have moved out....I am more than happy that P is still around.
* Waiting for Sillunu oru Kaadhal release. Trailers ellam supera irruku! Btw do u think Jo and Surya will really get married?
What's up from your end my friends? Many of you have not done much updating either...hope to read your posts soon!
* Worked on my thesis proposal...phew! that's out of the way now...(for people who are wondering what that is...its another step towards my degree!)
* Month long trip to Chennai - itha pathi sollave thevai illai...full maja thaan! namma ooru maarave illai...ofcourse ippo enna difference na there is more traffic, more people and more cell phones....keerai-kaari kooda has a mobile!!!!
* Back to work....or am I really? Still very disoriented...hate coming back here! Seperated from loved ones..its hard to get back!
* Our gang of 14 has now dwindled to a gang of 7...with people graduating, getting jobs etc. We still have other new comers but I am always wary of new junta so find it hard to embrace them immediately.
* Miss 2005 time with my very close friends terribly! It was a very simple life with As, me, K, An, Aa, N and P (preserving anonymity here!). All these except P have moved out....I am more than happy that P is still around.
* Waiting for Sillunu oru Kaadhal release. Trailers ellam supera irruku! Btw do u think Jo and Surya will really get married?
What's up from your end my friends? Many of you have not done much updating either...hope to read your posts soon!
August 21, 2006
June 26, 2006
What kind of soul are you?
I was too bored to work ....so decided to find my soul type!
| You Are a Peacemaker Soul |
 While you keep the peace, you tend to be secretly judgmental.You lose respect for people who don't like to both give and take.On the flip side, you've got a graet sense of humor and wit.You're always dimplomatic and able to give good advice. Souls you are most compatible with: Warrior Soul, Hunter Soul and Visionary Soul |
What Kind of Soul Are You?
May 16, 2006
Why?????
Why do I do love something when it is not rightfully mine?
Why do I have to be the one to give in every single time?
When I know that true love is unconditional, why do I expect to be loved?
Why do I assume that people will never change?
Why do I never learn from the past mistakes of my heart?
Why do I act as if I am the happiest person on earth when I am sobbing inside?
Why do I have to meet certain people in life?
When I know I am blessed with so many things in life, why do I crib about trivial things I do not possess?
Why?
Why do I have to be the one to give in every single time?
When I know that true love is unconditional, why do I expect to be loved?
Why do I assume that people will never change?
Why do I never learn from the past mistakes of my heart?
Why do I act as if I am the happiest person on earth when I am sobbing inside?
Why do I have to meet certain people in life?
When I know I am blessed with so many things in life, why do I crib about trivial things I do not possess?
Why?
May 06, 2006
Tulip time!!
Spring is finally here......tis the season of singing birds, vivid flowers, longer days, open toed sandals, flowery skirts, long walks, cool nights etc etc.......!!!!Above are some of the pics I took during my visit to a nearby Dutch community. The colours fascinated me.............wish I had a better camera to capture the essence of these pretty flowers.
April 23, 2006
If only......
"I love your dark green shirt! It goes so well with your gray eyes" she told him.
He smiled. His smile always made her melt. She leaned close to him and could smell his Old Spice aftershave...another familar scent. She leaned over to take some papers from his desk. Theirs arms brushed and a tinge of pleasure ran down her spine.
He was a big support in her life. Since his desk was right next to hers at work, they also shared a lot of stories about their coworkers. He could read her face so well and konja sogam therinjalum he would be right beside her making her feel better.
"Hmm....how I wish life were different" she thought walking home from the bus stop tired after a long day. He always offered to drop her but she refused. He understood.
She walked to find that his car was already at home. The TV was blaring ,with chips strewn all over the place.
"Enna innikum late?" he asked, his black eyes glowing with irritation.
"Sorrynga naraiya velai ....I shall start cooking in a minute" she said, getting ready to make his favourite pulao. "If only life was different........" she sighed!
He smiled. His smile always made her melt. She leaned close to him and could smell his Old Spice aftershave...another familar scent. She leaned over to take some papers from his desk. Theirs arms brushed and a tinge of pleasure ran down her spine.
He was a big support in her life. Since his desk was right next to hers at work, they also shared a lot of stories about their coworkers. He could read her face so well and konja sogam therinjalum he would be right beside her making her feel better.
"Hmm....how I wish life were different" she thought walking home from the bus stop tired after a long day. He always offered to drop her but she refused. He understood.
She walked to find that his car was already at home. The TV was blaring ,with chips strewn all over the place.
"Enna innikum late?" he asked, his black eyes glowing with irritation.
"Sorrynga naraiya velai ....I shall start cooking in a minute" she said, getting ready to make his favourite pulao. "If only life was different........" she sighed!
April 16, 2006
Chennai Saapadu Piriyargalukku.....
Ennaku hotela saapadarthu na romba ishtam.....eppovena saapada thayaar....enga amma kitta eppa parthalum complain paanikitte irrupen....
"Amma un sanbar en hotel sambar maathiri illa? En un chutni hotel getti chutni maathiri illa?"
Amma solluvanga, " Unakellam anga irrikura waiters oda veruvai azhukku ellam pottu kudutha nalla saapuduva, inga kashta pattu cleana panna unakku irangathu!"Paavam amma....
Ennoda ishta hotels ellam inga varusai padutha poren...neenga yaaravathu intha hotels la saaptu irrukeengala?
- Ofcourse, Madras naale first hotel mansauku varuvathu Saravana Bhavan thaan (see Kay's post for his experience there) - Mini Tiffin romba pidikkum!
- Stella Mary's opposite illa irrukum Gangotri (naan chaat na uyireye vituviduven)
- Fountain Plaza Ajnabi
- Nungambakkam Suprabhat - Super Barota Kuruma
- Nungambakkam High Road Dynasty - Indian Chinese food Oh Ho!!
- Pondy Bazaar Hot Chips
- Spencers Plaza Food Court
- Anna Nagar Planet Yummm
- Central Buhari's - angu Pongal sooper
- Nungai Cakes and Bakes- Veggie Burger kalakals
- Pizza Hut - Panner Pizza-ku munadi US la kadaikira pizza ellam thoosu
- VGP Family Dosai (saaptadhu illai ...sappdanumnu aasai)
- Mylapore Bombay Halwa House - naan and fried rice amogam!
- Besant Nagar Aavin Sweets palgova
- Adyar 'Traffic Jam' - Panner Butter Masala...aaha!
- Thallu vandi Sugar Cane juice.....aamam inthu hotel varusaiyil varaathu aana nana enga karumbu juice parthalum, kudipen.......Ranganathan street vaasala irrukum Karumbu Juice store hot favourite
Ippadiye ezhuthite pogalam.....
Cha! Ithellam vitu enda ingu vanthom appdini ippo thonuthu!!!
April 14, 2006
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)